Half Gone

I want to suffer when I need to suffer
I want to feel happy when I need it the most

You can keep your wrist
I guess I'll keep mine
And these shaky lips
Will tell you goodbye
Cut the shit
Right now I'm not fine
Picked a habit out
All it takes is four times

Bury this
Hotbox my dependencies
Another hit
Here's to the act of forgetting

So take another hit
Just enough to deal with it
In the morning
Hope you don't forget
I guess half gone
Is dead gone
But you're never there

Well that's a nice habit
Where did you get it?
It looks expensive
More than you'd care to afford
I lost my balance
Fell off the deep end
For now it's enough but
I know I'll need more

I know
Exactly what's wrong with me
Wallow in self defeat
You could blame me or nicotine
I guess I let you get the best of me
Did he taste like victory?
Did you ever feel guilty?
There's a shame in hypocrisy
Just make it stop
Just make it stop

So take another hit
Just enough to deal with it
In the morning
Hope you don't forget
I guess half gone
Is dead gone
But you're never there

I want to suffer when I need to suffer
I want to feel happy when I need it the most

Where's my remedy?
Here's the medicine
And the malady
I guess you got the best of me