Divided

This wait is too long
I don't wanna have to see you crawling
You falling down
While I just stand around
You vaulted out
So you didn't have to hold my sorrow
My sorrow now

So can you show me how
I find a stone that I can carry
Carry all the way
And all alone
I make the journey
Cuz I just can't stay
If I decide that I am broken
Will I lose my past
If I decide it's time to end it
Will it break too fast

And you might be divided
By the things that you know
All the subtle surprises
By the devil below
And you might be divided
By the war in your mind
But you can't keep on hiding
From the world you designed

There's no words you can say
To wish it away
Wish it away

Is it on top of me?
All of this latency
I don't wanna talk about it
I don't wanna set it free

Cuz the excuses that are in my head
Make it safe to avoid it all
Is it better just to play it dead
Then take the psycho social adderall
How am I supposed to choose
Between the truths that I never knew
Every time that I turn away
I deny what I put you through

And you might be divided
By the things that you know
All the subtle surprises
By the devil below
And you might be divided
By the war in your mind
But you can't keep on hiding
From the world you designed

There's no words you can say
Walk past the outside line
And hold until you find
A code that you can break
A breath that you can take
Disrupt the simple mind
Throw out the thoughts that bind
Just wait until they're gone
So they don't tell you you're wrong again
Running so long for them
It's not a race you'll win
Running so long again
All of your life...
And it's there to be found

And you might be divided
By the things that you know
All the subtle surprises
By the devil below
And you might be divided
By the war in your mind
But you can't keep on hiding
From the world you designed

There's no words you can say
To wish it away