I Endured Childhood Trauma and All I Got Was This Stupid Internal Monologue

I know, I know
I've heard it all before
You've said it over and over again
It repeats, even when you're not there
You're now a voice inside my head

Still, I never learn

I'm so selfish, it's always about me
I'm a fucking monster, I'm so greedy
"Don't you dare start crying, you manipulative bitch"
Drowning out your voice has become my only wish

I get your point
But you say it all the time
Your arguments haven't changed for years
I try to change, but nothing's good enough
My eyes well up with tears

Every time you tell me that

I'm so selfish, it's always about me
I'm a fucking monster I'm so greedy
"Don't you dare start cryin, you manipulative bitch"
Destroying my ear drums has become my only wish

I can try to defend myself from all the shit you say
But it feels so god damn true
It's gotten in my mind
It's hard-wired in my brain
And now my thoughts just echo you

But you'll never approve because

I'm so selfish, it's always about me
I'm a fucking monster, I'm so greedy
I won't dare cry
I know I'm a manipulative bitch
Now getting a lobotomy has become my only wish

(I'm so selfish it's always about me)
It has become my wish
(I'm so selfish it's always about me)
It has become my wish
(I'm so selfish it's always about me)
A lobotomy's my wish
(I'm so selfish)
Because I know that I'm a manipulative bitch



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