Maintain (feat. Kiiba)

For the best that I could do, I was just guarding my spirit
Irony is that people feel I'm a form of defensive
Barricading off any form of contact with the outside world, hoping my name doesn't pop in a mention
Over time, I watched bonds untie into tension, confide in resentment later when they reply to a message
Only time that I reply is replying with interest, only time I have interest when profit is mentioned
Feel a loss of words, 'cause quotes I struggle to find
Wanna tell my story but still can't put too much on the lines
Look for tranquility vibes, plenty of times
Since the age of 9, I was trapped in my mind
Recycling the same shit on a different day, nappy headed black babies, tryna make a way
This a everyday struggle for the chances we take
Playing Russian Roulette, that's the games that we play

Maintain
Talking to myself, I need to just
Maintain
Roll my problems in a blunt, it's helping me
Maintain
Blocking out the world, I need to just
Maintain
All I need to do is
Maintain
Blocking out the world, I need to just
Maintain
Roll my problems in a blunt, it's helping me
Maintain
Talking to myself, reminder to
Maintain

Ayo
In this life, I think I'm needing too much
Sitting sideways to problems, think I'm needing a clutch
Cold summers, hot winters, its a season to buck
And after every season, I'm seeing a reason to just be unbalanced
Weighing out the odds of life and talent
Even then, it's blurred through every puzzle and fragment
Don't need another attachment to pick
Mainly off to send away all of my thoughts in the mix
Lost in a fit of insecurity, aiming purposely
Purpose is to know my message, people see it thoroughly
Through a profit-size of pain to tell my tale to currency
Ideology is that my ego doesn't murder me
Really, currently, I just look for a silver lining in a grey sky
And Love and Hate is really attaching to thin lines
Lining pieces together to even seek solace
Like its a free concept, conceiving what the con is
Contemplating what are the methods to start over
Conversations off to myself for more closure
Conscious thinking ways to settle when it's all over
Conscious thinking ways to settle when it's all over

Probably need to
Maintain
Talking to myself, I need to just
Maintain
Roll my problems in a blunt, it's helping me
Maintain
Blocking out the world, I need to just
Maintain
All I need to do is
Maintain
Blocking out the world, I need to just
Maintain
Roll my problems in a blunt, it's helping me
Maintain
Talking to myself, reminder to
Maintain