Y'all Not R0ckin W Ego Death !?

It's been a minute since I wrote to you
I been scared to tell my hopes to you
Cause at times it feels like you don't want the best for me
I was never the best me when I was close to you
It was never personal I hope you know that now
And I know it's too late, not tryna go back now
I hit rock bottom, didn't stop going down
Never knew the hell that could live below that ground
I wanted to hurt you, same way you hurt me
I wanted you to know that you don't deserve me
I wanted you to feel as worthless as I did
I wanted you to know that you had to earn me

I'm sorry
Going thru changes
I'm sorry (I been changing)
Going thru changes
I'm sorry
Going thru changes
I'm sorry
Yeah I been going thru changes
I'm sorry, it was my fault
I played the victim, it was like a cult
Yeah I'm sorry
Yeah I'm sorry
Yeah I'm sorry
I created a villain out of distance
Created a villain of existence
I'm sorry

"You know maybe you're resentful about something
Well you probably are because like everybody's resentful about something
And resentment is just a vicious emotion you know
It's really useful
It's really useful because it starts with resentment
And then it goes to the desire for revenge"

You just wanted a friend
I couldn't accept that
I took that as a judgement of my character
That I'll always be just a friend to everyone
That's a whole lotta guilt and embarrassment
I was 16 I didn't know what I was doing
16 without even a ounce of confidence
Then I put out that first song, holy shit it was ass
But goddamn was that shit an accomplishment
You said you proud of me, called me by my rap name
Bit of attention all a sudden my ass changed
Shit man, it's not like I ever had game
But yo like she could pronounce my last name

"Thinking for 3 or four years about just exactly how terrible the world is
How that's focused on you and how everyone's rejected you
Where you're thinking that you know
Existence it self is kind of a poisonous endeavour"

You like to self-sabotage, so did I
Misery loves company, I was alone in hell
I know why I fell in love we had a lot in common
You didn't like me, and me I didn't like myself
Finally someone that understands how worthless I am
You have no idea how fucking right I felt
Take my happy pills swallow and it burns
And just like that gone all my problems and concerns
I'm sorry

And I'm tired
I'm so tired of feeling
So tired of feeling like a victim
I blamed you for everything
I blamed you



Credits
Writer(s): Sina Darvishi
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