Solo Gang

Too many crying nights staying by myself,
I been doing things for my health,
Learning curve to being an adult
Like accepting the fact not everything's my fault,
Tired of walking on eggshells
Just 'cause I care of how other people might feel,
I got some fight still and I'll fight steel
Just to give my family a nice meal,
I got to get make this money for the morning or I might steal,
I just think about these hard times when I'm faded,
Feel long lost like I'm jaded,
I must love wrong like I'm Jada,
Picking up the broken pieces of my heart in the dark,
I've been feeling lonely,
But I don't need nobody else to be rocking by my lonely,
You can give me the key to escape but I won't leave
This castle I've built,
I've been cramping on pills, zip bags that are filled,
Need that for the bills,
'Cause it costs money to just lean back and chill.
Blacked out car, Black suit on me,
I remember when it was just me,
I remember when it was just me,
Just me, Just me,
Aye, Aye,
Blacked out car, Black suit on me,
I remember when it was just me,
I remember when it was just me,
Just me, Just me,
Aye, Aye,
I don't really need no one,
I just need to be on one,
I don't really need no one,
I just need to be on one,
I need a, I need a smoke in this bitch,
I've been through a lot of struggles,
I once told my mama I didn't love her,
I said this but I wish I didn't,
wish I didn't but I did it, I've been feeling so distant ever since,
I don't know if there's a God but if there is -please forgive,
Being a kid still innocent, I wish to pay back every cent,
When my apartment was cold, I couldn't afford the gas for the stove,
Living Chicago these winters are cold,
Can't hit rock bottom that's the lowest to low,
I ended up stacking my dough,
I hustle 'cause where I live opportunities don't knock at the door.
Blacked out car, Black suit on me,
I remember when it was just me,
I remember when it was just me,
Just me, Just me,
Aye, Aye,
Blacked out car, Black suit on me,
I remember when it was just me,
I remember when it was just me,
Just me, Just me,
Aye, Aye,
Why does it feel like all I ever do is stress?
After all the praying why does my hurt still feel dead?
Why does it feel like this rollercoaster don't stop?
What am I suppose to do when I fall?
Never needed anybody before, Who remembers me facing and stocking
the store?
Slipping some formula 'cause the coupons was gone
And my baby was hungry,
Barely crawling the floors,
I remember telling her daddy's doing his best,
Yet my checks was never enough,
Cashing that check was degrading enough,
Telling my landlord I'm leaving next month,
Can't afford it,
Clocks ticking - I need a place to live, what we gonna eat,
Yet I stand through the storm even if it means by back's to the wall,
This hunger inside is the reason I'm strong.
Blacked out car, Black suit on me,
I remember when it was just me,
I remember when it was just me,
Just me, Just me,