I Am Not. Okay

I walked alone to the telephone
Now I'm overanalysing this familiar dial tone
Wondering if I should change myself today
Or if I should stay out of everybody's way

And it's just crazy how much I try to change me
Because when you're bound by expectations
How can you be set free?

Maybe I'm addicted to the feeling of being liked by everyone
And I know that I chose to mirror those around me
But at the end of the day
I'm not anyone

And I'm not insane
But I am not impressed
Maybe I should rest
Maybe I should admit, that I am not. okay

I'm isolated at this party
Trying to guess what they're all thinking of
I have a tendency to assume that deep inside their heart
Is a burning, raging hatred for my gut

And it's just crazy, how much I try to change me
Because when you're bound by expectations
How can you be set free?

Maybe I'm addicted to the feeling of being liked by everyone
And I know that I chose to mirror those around me
But at the end of the day
I'm not anyone

And I'm not insane
But I am not impressed
Maybe I should rest
Maybe I should admit that I am not. okay

All I crave is validation
Wish that I could just be sober
Why do I have to be hated?
Wish this nightmare could be over

Wish you knew me before you judged me
Wish that we could just be friends
But instead it's all discarded
Before we even had a chance

And I tried to pretend it isn't killing me slowly

Maybe I'm addicted to the feeling of being liked by everyone
And I know that I chose to mirror those around me
But at the end of the day
I'm not anyone

And I'm not insane
But I am not impressed
Maybe I should rest
Maybe I should admit, that I'm not okay



Credits
Writer(s): Jenny Wang
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