Here's To Getting Old

These thoughts all race through my head
I just can't make them stop
Are my dreams over and dead?
Was this for real or not?

They make me sick and hollow
I wish they'd just turn off
There's no more pride to swallow
My senses got cut off

So here's to getting old
Turns out I'm on my own
I've never felt so lost
I'm measuring the cost
I'm asking myself

Can I go back to when I was younger?
(Everything was clear)
I just know that I can't help but wonder
(If I could disappear)

As this all goes through my mind
I want to leave them behind
These people and these places
The names and all the faces
They haunt me, still surround me
But I just can't let them go
My eyes were too blind to see
That I'm just stuck in a show

So here's to getting old
Turns out I'm on my own
I've never felt so lost
I'm measuring the cost
I'm asking myself

Can I go back to when I was younger?
(Everything was clear)
I just know that I can't help but wonder
(If I could disappear)

I can barely breathe
(I'm falling)
Nothing here for me
(No calling)

There's nothing here for me now
But I don't wanna go out
It's out there plain as can be
And I still want to be free
I hope I find strength to leave
And put this all behind me
I'll find my own way to grow
So pack it up and let's go

So pack it up and let's go

Can I go back to when I was younger?
(Everything was clear)
I just know that I can't help but wonder

So here's to getting old
Turns out I'm on my own
I've never felt so lost
I'm measuring the cost
I'm asking myself

Can I go back to when I was younger?
(Everything was clear)
I just know that I can't help but wonder
(If I could disappear)