Midnight

Man I've been trying to make it off being real alone
And count my blessings before it blow it all
I don't know at all where we go from here
But the lord knows that I ain't scared
Was a ghetto kid. now I'm ghetto grown
Man I've been down so long, the stories getting old
Shit, I never thought I'd make it home again
But I been wrong about a lot of things, Ya
In the darkest hours of the coldest nights
On the longest day of my fucking life
I always found a light cause I've been there
Spent a long time trying to compare
This life I have to some normal shit
That I only ever see on a TV set
You ever wonder what it's like in a poor kid's head?
Well, I guess this is it

Never thought about a word I said
Until someone told me I was helping kids
Now most days I can barely lift a pen
'Cause I'm scared as hell I'm gonna hurt someone with it
Man I don't even know who the fuck I am and shit
Ya'll still look to me for this

Hard to sleep at night
Got shit running through my mind
I've been thinking over time
About my people left behind

If I could do it one more time
I'd change it all for you to smile
Maybe then you'd see the light
Maybe then we'd be alright

I've been battling demons that don't have a face
running my whole life but staying in place
Never wanted it all I just need a taste
I don't pray to god 'cause I don't have the patience
Take me with you, I'm tired of waiting
This place is more than I can fucking manage
Self-medicating, in a housing basement
Wasting time trying to fight my anger
Don't hear no pity, no fear no evil
When I meet the reaper we'll speak as equals
On the gravel roads where the river meets you
I'm a poster child for the broken people
I was supposed to lose but I chose not to
It took a while but I've come back to
Prove to everyone what a young king would do
Given half a chance and not a thing to lose

It's hard to sleep at night
Got shit running through my mind
I've been thinking over time
About my people left behind

If I could do it one more time
I'd change it all for you to smile
Maybe then you'd see the light
Maybe then we'd be alright

I wanna wash my hands of this anxiety
All this attitudes got me feeling things
Like nobody is real in this snake pit
A lot of people doing fake shit
I don't want the crown man keep the ring
I'm older now the hat fits different
The real talking starts to hit different
Don't bother speaking when they won't listen
Now all these scars I got start to mean something
Dues are paid and then some
Still working harder than I've ever have
Trying to be the teacher that I've never had
But who am I to try and change things?
I'm just another asshole with opinions
Just another asshole trying to change things

But maybe we could if you gave me the chance
We could walk out this door and just never look back
We could take all our problems and air this place out
With smiles on our faces and bags in the trunk
Ride into the sunset like nobody does
We got lots of love but were down on our luck
You could pack your whole life in the back of a truck
Just don't ever let em tell you when to stop
Don't ever tell em you're about to drop
Most your friends are waiting for the flop
But some would love to see you at the top
They're the ones you need to hold onto
They're the ones who wanna grow with you
Ride together till the day's through
Ain't shit to lose but there's a lot to prove

Just stick a move
Just stick a move
Don't cut no corners
Just stick a move
Shit to lose but there's a lot to prove