Still Here?

Matters of the heart can't be settled with the mind
Only qualm I had with God was thinking it wasn't her time
I'm bonding with these snares I'm growing fond of what I'm hearing
Telling bro he top tier hope it don't fall on deaf... ears
You get one take, one time
One player, one prime
One love, one life
Forever divine, watch I spread mine
And when I float, I hope envy don't come and replace your hope
Who knows? They say it never change you it change who close
In this stanza, that I rambles in
I tend to do more panicking, overthinking, imbalancing
Need to be communicative when self sedating start adding to my damages
I guess the solace that I fiend for is the effect of causing all that havoc
Feel a similar pain I swear I haven't
But it's the reason why I'm married to this
Or would get shocked by any static for it
You was here when two out that G how we had to do it
Shid when I was just a, a, a
A chip off the block
Damn near cracked my neck watching them benzies roll by
My favorites F probably Fruition and Forgiveness
Had to bury the hatchet with myself bro I would've killed him

If it ain't soulful I ain't close to it
You like to chill and just reflect, well then this your music
You enjoy life with every breath, when then this your music
I just want be the one you lean on when you going through it
On your dark days let me be your moon
It was a dark daze, I was on my Scrooge
Miserable hopeless til you stepped inside my room
It was a dream, you told me
Everything I wanted would come true and it bloomed yeah

Only thing on my manifest list is you
It's not a goal, more like a red light to run into
But now that's rare because this 'Vette I'm in it love to zoom
My people learn too late, ironically they go too soon
You can't complain if you ain't out here with them going against the grain
That thought'll seem strange til you seen things, that was clear as a clean pane
Blind crippled old head told me youngin you ain't never seen pain
But we kept the scene playing like it's Goodfellas
Everyone freeze and listen when EZ impute his message
As you lead, you gone get hit from right to left with new tests
But it's only right you get it all when you got nothing left
If it ain't soulful I ain't close to it
You like to chill and just reflect, well then this your music
You enjoy life with every breath, when then this your music
I just want be the one you lean on when you going through it
On your dark days let me be your moon
It was a dark daze, I was on my Scrooge
Miserable hopeless til you stepped inside my room
It was a dream, you told me
Everything I wanted would come true and look it bloomed for me