If Tears Were Blood Maybe More People Would Care

I'm cold, I'm cold
Home doesn't feel like home no more, no more
Not fair, not fair
If tears were blood, maybe more people would care

I'm defeated, I'm surprised that I haven't relapsed
Guilt is feasting, I can't even think straight. Let's recap
When I was 14, I felt a little different
I told my mama how I felt and changed how I was living
It was good at first, but it was all forsaken
I was looking for myself in all the wrong places
Should be effortless, don't know why I'm tryin
Touch a pencil to the paper, don't know what I'm writing
I signed up for this. Shouldn't be surprising
I'm building a plane, but I'm already flying

I was goin' really fast. I wasn't ready for the change
Almost fifty-fifty chance. Didn't think I'd have to pay.
Dummies always telling me I'm mentally insane
Maybe I am, not cuz of this. it's cuz they say I'm just a waste

I'm cold, I'm cold
Home doesn't feel like home no more, no more
Not fair, not fair
If tears were blood, maybe more people would care

I know this life is my own
But everyone else thinks I should be a ghost
Why do I live like this? Always so scared
If tears were blood, maybe more people would care

If tears were blood, maybe more people would care
If tears were blood, maybe more people would care
If tears were blood, maybe more people would care
If tears were blood, maybe more people would care

If tears were blood, maybe more people would care
If tears were blood, maybe more people would care
If tears were blood, maybe more people would care
If tears were blood, maybe more people would care

I know I'll be alright, they just gotta get used to me
It's gonna be a while. People suck. That's clear to see
Bigots growing selfish by the day, science is weak
I gotta stop thinking one day they'll be accepting me

I gotta stop thinking of my rights deceptively
I gotta stop worrying about identity
I gotta stop breathing in the fear that's in the air
If tears were blood, maybe more people would care