Limbo

Sleeping through the night
Weeping in the light
Days I'm so lost I'm like a heathen when it's bright
Everything I witness feel it seep into my mind
Observe the universe and now I'm speaking to the sky
I'm sure it's not my business, what's the deeper point of life
Liberation on horizons, where's the freedom at this site
In my bed I see my saddest feelings creeping to my right
I sink into my sheets and get to dreaming of the flight
That I'll take when I arrive and get a plane to reach some heights
I swear I never thought I'd get to off the lyrics that I type
I spend my days inside to write but I just waste time
Procrastinating work, I need to open up my eyes
Surrounded by a group and they absorbed a shitty vibe
I wanna cheer them up but they'll ignore me if I try
So I say that I'm not feeling it but really I feel fine
I say that I'm mature but half the time I'm acting five
It's like I live in limbo
Complexity is simple
I'll never understand the way shit works I'm just not meant to
Tryna walk a mile's a little hard when you got big shoes
The kicks are all my own because I'm tryna make these big moves
Scatterbrained I wonder where I'll go in a month
It doesn't matter where I'm at, at least I'm growing and stuff
The winters get dark and then the snow isn't fun
Pursuing all my goals because I know what I want
Papa told me get the bag, momma told me I'm a gem
And I hate to disappoint but see I doubt it now and then
I combine their two ideas in the back of my head
I was born to be a star, yeah, I know what I said
I remember I was young in the kitchen, I break a cup
Scared of consequences so I go to where I'm loved
Wrapped so tight it's like the blankets in my blood
If I could live inside my dreams then what's the point of waking up
I wish that I could say that all my demons were to blame
But it's just human flaws it's not a problem with my brain
That's just who was then, and who I am today
Is just a young stunna tryna find an escape
From the cage that is the burbs, I need to get paid
I ain't tryna pay for college off of minimum wage
People all around me love to hate so they stay
So much negativity I pray that they pray
My spot isn't taken
I make shit 'till I make it
All I need is time for for the moment stay patient
If it's bad news, say it quick and make it painless
And get off my line even when I'm kinda famous
Who else do you know that makes songs just like mine
Once somebody notices me then I'll be alright
Innovation over inspiration cradle 'till I die
And I'm gonna keep succeeding if I'm dead or alive