Fake

Lately, I've been thinking
Maybe, I've been drinking
More than I should be, more than I could be
But it, it helps to numb this

Sadness, I've been feeling
Can't rest, my head's reeling
Doing my best, when put to the test
But somehow, I've become this

Girl who got stuck in this life
I don't know why, I don't know why
No matter how hard I try
Everybody's passing me by

I don't know how I got here
I don't know how to leave
I want to give up and hide
It's getting hard to believe
That I could somehow change this
This frozen state that I'm in
The grass is greener on the other side
I just can't win

I see others flourish
I feel so discouraged
I want to have, what they seem to have
But somehow, I am still this

Girl who got stuck in this life
I don't know why, I don't know why
No matter how hard I try
Everybody's passing me by

Still don't know how I got here
Still don't know how to leave
I want to give up and hide
It's getting hard to believe
That I could somehow change this
This frozen state that I'm in
The grass is greener on the other side
I just can't win

Maybe I am wrong though
Maybe I am not alone
Everybody fights their battles deep inside
I guess I should have known
That most of us just hide the
The pain that we all feel and
Just cause we don't share, doesn't mean it isn't there
We'd just rather pretend

Maybe I should be here and
Maybe I don't have to leave
No need to give up or hide
I'm starting to believe
That others also struggle
They also bend and break
The grass is greener on the other side
Because it's fake