Everything Turns Gray

Who do you love when most the ppl you love don't love you
Stranger faces related they been ghost but still hug you
Once every couple years they see you at family events
Can barely pretend I like'em how you love whatchu haven't met
Seen me at 5 a couple decades ago that doesn't count
I developed who I was meant ta be y'all didn't come around
My 14th birthday was lonely just me an a cake A flavor I didn't even like looked around I Didn't see a face
I felt abandoned father dipped an y'all knew it y'all didn't trip
Y'all didn't have ta y'all didn't give 2 fucks if I didn't live
I mean if I died y'all kinda care only to a certain extent
Grandpa paid the rent well it's his daughter of course the nigga did

Everything turns gray the more that you age Everything turns gray the more that you Age
Everything turns gray the more that you age everything turns everything turns more that You age
I learned that you can never take the wisdom I know as long as I stay breathing just Know that I grow
Everything turns gray the more that you age

I ain't tryna complain
But ever since my name got a little fame
Shit has never been the same
Old acquaintances acting strange
Telling me that I've changed
New people in my face
Just wanna be entertained
Not noticing my pain
I keep it all inside my brain
Hold a smile on my frame
Look what I became
I wish that I could turn back time
When I first heard Eminem n tried to learn that rhyme
From his song titled the way I am
N really understood the meaning steada being a stan
And realized that this whole show biz is a trap shit
But now I'm in too deep as if I'm trapped in
A maze or A bubble that I cant pop
Some saying that I went pop
Some telling me that I should stop
Fuck those opinions u got
I'll never be who I'm not
With every song that I drop
Im tryna move to the top
Ya I belong in this spot
Until the day that I drop
They'll remember my fucking name for all the lines that I jot
This thing is all that I got
This pain is all that I got
But I'm an alchemist I'll turn it to something beautiful, watch me

Everything turns gray the more that you age Everything turns gray the more that you Age
Everything turns gray the more that you age everything turns everything turns more that You age
I learned that you can never take the wisdom I know as long as I stay breathing just Know That I grow
Everything turns gray the more that you age

Look around at a party I know nobody at 11 years old basically my fathers a hologram
My mama's trashed she drunk only one that fucked with a guy that's black
They didn't disrespect they respected but never took a second to make sure I'm Mentally protected
They only watched and gasped to gossip back an forth never visited but they texted Mom
I texted pops my ass got rejected he wasn't replying back
Playing records of Michael jack for memories I Couldn't forget inside
A child missing his childhood memories through vids reliving mine
You don't miss it till it's Nonexistent luckily I had friends that didn't have careless family Members
They treated me as they own still believe In me as they grow
Didn't need ta be trapped at home I was TNT I'd explode in my pillow snapping alone
So the company meant a lot went ta school nobody would fuck w me wondered what's Up w me
It's the lack of love that would crumble me bag of crumbs that would hunger me
Man above that would humble me younger me was a colored me
Innocence brings imagination and Brighter lights that dim more the more exposure you come to see
The grass lost saturation through years of desensitization
The wisdom is just a key to see color through televised Stations

Everything turns gray the more that you age Everything turns gray the more that you Age
Everything turns gray the more that you age everything turns everything turns more that You age
I learned that you can never take the wisdom I know as long as I stay breathing just Know That I grow
Everything turns gray the more that you age