XSCAPISM (OUTRO)

This is for me
For me, For me, ME
I needed you to see the real me
I don't have glamour, no
I don't have fame
But I still hope you remember my name
I made this shit for those that still believe
I made this shit for those that say
They're not taught to believe
I don't want your money
But sometimes I want it all
Sometimes I just need somebody to vibe with
That' all...
Will you remember?
Remember my story, please!
I'll live forever thru your memories
Please hear my soul
If only one time...
I just want you to take a peek in my mind
Let's just explore, yes, let's explore more
I'll keeps it real, this ain't like before
I know it ain't easy to say where I been
But you'd understand if you stay until the end

XSCAPE (Xscape)
From any thought outside my own
I needed to XSCAPE
To try and find my way back home
Way back home
Way back home

Took me a while but I made it thru...
With no help from asylums, pills or institutes
Picture you on the edge of your wildest dreams but...
Something holds you back when you take your highest leaps
And that shit inspired me to not go into meltdown
It's like I opened up the cage and let my mothafucking self out
And now I belt out that Freedom lies inside you
And there could never be a label that can define you
Let me remind you that when you find you
It'll realign you with who designed you
I said, Let me remind you that when you find you
It'll realign you with who designed you
Put the shit behind you
Climb til you find a higher you!
Like, if you were a boss would you hire you?
Let me remind you that when you find you
It'll realign you with who designed you

XSCAPE (Xscape)
From everyone and every thing
I needed to XSCAPE
To a place where love is king

I'm too emotional
I can't get close to you
Sometimes I go, go thru my days
Without knowing what to do
I don't wanna sound insane
But I don't always sound so sane
When I speak my mind, they show restraint
I can't help it, shit just ain't the same

I wish you knew!
I wish you knew!
I wish you knew!
I wish you knew!

When I got what I needed...
I felt unworthy
When I got what I wanted...
It wasn't enough
Loneliness
Is now a friend of mine
I wish you knew!

I held my silence
I played my part
Built these walls around my heart
I've got my issues
But so do you girl
Still I wish you knew!

Ohh baby, ohh baby
Ohh baby, ohh baby
Yeah baby
I wish you knew!

All I get is questions like
Hmmm... what you saying?
What are you escaping?
What ain't you got lot of plays, n***a
What's with the delays, man?
It seems like everybody just grew a little impatient
Honestly the truth is I can't blame them
I know I don't owe anybody no explanations
But I think it's the perfect time for me to try and face them
I do it for my fans cuz I know that they've been patient
I had to find myself so I could lead a generation

last couple years I've been caged in
Dealing with pressures that came with
The success, the lust and the sex
Plus the burden of stress and all my expectations
It made me a mess, test my courage, my faith and desire
Like the 2 - 3, I almost faded away and retired
But instead I chose to escape in the quiet
And I ain't tell a soul cuz ain't nobody gotta know
That in the midst of my silence...
I grew afraid to share my art with the globe!
I just needed to get away...
Cuz the sins of my father
Always seem to have a way of catching up to me
I guess them genes pass it up to me
And I don't hate him but I'm grateful that he didn't have my custody
Plus the pains of my mother put tears in my eyes
She kept it a buck, that's why I'm never disguised
And I ain't wanna carry that weight
That's the reason why I had to escape
Shit, I had patterns to break!

And now I'm...
Turning my back on every doubt that befriended me
Cuz still I shine thru any cloud that they sending me
Making the kind of music that resides in the inner me
So when you ride, you can vibe to my energy
I just imagine and believe in what it's gonna be
And all these visions come to life right in front of me
I ain't worried about no timing...
Imma ride that wave like Poseidon!
At first, the motive was selfish
I did it cuz I could, I did it cuz I felt it
But somewhere along the way while I was wandering astray
And pondering if I would ever conquer, man, I contemplated ways
To make the most out of the gift that's in my hands
You see my peers were just kids, and they ain't understand
So while they fantasized about money, women and lambos
I dreamed about a life full of music and pianos
And while others booked flights for a summer at the keys
I spent day and nights of my summers by the keys
And if i wasn't playing music, I was praying on my knees
Cuz I wanted it so bad that I would die for this dream
I've cried, loved, lost and I've lied for this dream
But I strive until I arrive cuz I still believe that...
I could achieve, man, I rise from beneath
If they don't think that I'm the truth then they lie thru they teeth

I do this for my kin cuz I wanna make them proud
I do this for my KING, cuz of Him I'm well endowed
I do this for my nephews and my nieces
So when they dream, they could dream BIG
And not excuse it with a weakness
And I don't do this for credit, I do well with just a visa
Plus I ain't afraid to fail because my refuge is in Jesus
Please just, listen to my thesis!
I know that my world gon' change from the moment I release this!
I may be wide, but my soul's athletic...
That's why everything I made has been copacetic
The shit they playing on the radio is so pathetic
I don't even listen in on this whole pandemic
I only hear from those with soul and those that get it
Those that know the role of music and those that bred it...
Or those that show the globe that we won't develop
Into folks that put their hopes in soulless endeavors!

You have to XSCAPE!

And that's the truth
I thank you all for passing thru
It's funny how all my journeys end up right here
Back with you...

Are you still here?