Lavender

Lying alone in a field of lavender
Hates a disease and I think I'm a carrier
Life is a movie, mine is a clip
Gun to my head, empty the clip
Living is work and I wanna resign
None of my friends are actually mine
Waste of space and a waste of a life
I just wanna slit my throat with a knife
Don't have the drive to do shit anymore
Getting out my bed has become a chore
Im so lonely this side of the border
My mind is chaotic ruled by a disorder
Don't think i've forgot all that shit you said
You left me to rot, wishing me dead
Proving my worth yeah ripped to shreds
It wont fucking stop till there's nothing left

Rip off your fingers
Smell of death lingers
Rope there to swing yuh
Kill everything huh
Rip off your fingers
Smell of death lingers
Rope there to swing yuh
Kill everything huh
Rip off your fingers
Smell of death lingers
Rope there to swing yuh
Kill everything huh
Rip off your fingers
Smell of death lingers
Rope there to swing yuh
Kill everything huh

It's all my fault because it always is
Oldest brother I'm not gonna be missed
Sat alone in my room I reminisce
On days out with friends now I hear them hiss
I just want a reason to save my wrists
Give me a reason keep going through this
My sadness invalid, happy can't exist
Won't reach out for help, parents would be pissed
Say shit about me, could never resist
Old wounds reopened I can't deal with it
The world moves on whether or not I breathe
My own stubbornness will be the death of me



Credits
Writer(s): Oliver Godfrey
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