Depression

My mind is so messed up, I think I got depression
I seen a lot of wrongs but I guess that is my confession
If only I known I ruined all my blessings
Guilt, sorrow, pain, shame, I had been really stressin'
If only your love could forever last
Why all the good times have to go away so fast?
I been writing side notes about the life I had
Because I know, I know I can't escape the past

Waking up with a pretty dreary feeling (Aye)
It seems the good times only happen when I'm dreaming (When I'm dreaming)
Ramen noodles, TV dinners, yeah, that's what we was eating (What we was eating)
In my head I could hear the fans screaming (Fans screaming)
My only enemy I fear is my demons (My demons)
Wondering if imma die while I'm sleeping (I'm sleeping)
If I don't like you then I don't and I mean it (I mean it)
Just appreciate 'cause you could one day stop breathing (Stop breathing)
Thought I had some friends, they turn they back 'cause they was scheming, aye
Gotta watch your back at night 'cause someone could be creeping, aye
All I hear is gunshots singing all throughout the evening, aye
Normally I just wanna reflect on the weekend (On the weekend)
I'm by myself, I'm losing all of my old team (Yeah)
But I improved, ballin' like I'm Kobe (Aye)
I'm getting reckless, I cannot control me
My demons lurking, I just need someone to hold me

My mind is so messed up, I think I got depression
I seen a lot of wrongs but I guess that is my confession
If only I known I ruined all my blessings
Guilt, sorrow, pain, shame, I had been really stressin'
If only your love could forever last
Why all the good times have to go away so fast?
I been writing side notes about the life I had
Because I know, I know I can't escape the past (Aye, aye, aye)

I don't have no friends, like, I just feel all alone
Everything was different when shawty used to call my phone
Nowadays, when I call, all I get is the dial tone
How you gone tell me to leave? (Leave)
But now you mad I'm gone (Gone)
Focus on the mission 'cause we gotta leave his brain splattered
I'm thinking too much while I could spend everyday happy
I try to forget it and I'm acting like it ain't happen
I don't care about that little stuff 'cause in my mind the paper matter
I got a question, do I have depression?
When that's a good question 'cause I don't know
Stacking the bands to the ceiling from the floor
20 shots and he dropped dead in front of the store (Of the store, oh)
Aye, look at my life
Aye, that pain it stab me like a knife (Ah)
Aye, I'm wondering who gone slide (Ah)
Aye, I'm wondering who gone ride

My mind is so messed up, I think I got depression
I seen a lot of wrongs but I guess that is my confession
If only I known I ruined all my blessings
Guilt, sorrow, pain, shame, I had been really stressing
If only your love could forever last
Why all the good times have to go away so fast?
I been writing side notes about the life I had
Because I know, I know I can't escape the past (Yeah)

(Up the poles on 'em, Birdie)