GOOD ENOUGH

I'm always the quickest to run out the door
Until I can't move my legs anymore
And it's never to settle the score
It's because I've been shook to my core
I'll spend a lifetime burying all things bad
Deep inside of my consciousness
And now that the dead have risen
Am I living the apocalypse?

Because it's dark outside in the afternoon
And I'm stuck inside a solar eclipse
I know it ain't the end of the world but I'm sure
That it got me a glimpse
There's skeletons inside my closet
Like I died of mysterious causes
I look at myself and if I'm honest
The murder weapon's inside my pocket

I hide every trace of all my scars
Too scared, I'll never be enough
I should have listened to my gut
But running away got me so far
From where I wanted to end up
Seems like my typical luck

I'm always the quickest to point all the blame
On everyone else but my name
And it's honestly out of the shame
That I couldn't erase all my pain
I spent a lifetime drowning out all things bad
Thinking I'd finally lay it to rest
But it all came back to haunt me, now every night
They're all hiding right under my bed

I know when it strikes midnight
They'll be watching my every step
I need to set them free
And wreck these walls I've built inside of my head
My desire to always be wanted
It gave me ghosts, now I'll always be haunted
I can't sleep, now I'm living exhausted
And is it something that can end up forgotten?

I hide every trace of all my scars
Too scared, I'll never be enough
I should have listened to my gut
But running away got me so far
From where I wanted to end up
Seems like my typical luck