Letting Go

Try to remember the good times when you find this message
Cause it's the sole survivor, black box in the wreckage
Life was thorough, like it followed a checklist
Wife left, kids is locked up, pawned the necklace
I used to think I'd get respected
Back at home on the islands, least as long as the checks hit
But even before the cash was gone, see they all defected
Failures are solo missions, only get squads for successes
What's left is, a lot of first looks and second guesses
Third time's a charm and shit, I couldn't see the harm in this
Life of always trying get the next thing that's hard to get
Heart scarred a bit, wearin flashy shit as armament but
I'd rather wear that ugly sweater that my daughter made
They ain't put that price tag on everything I bought and paid
Must've sobbed for days rockin and whispering
That maybe if I had never left then things would've been different

Here on my own it feels all alone
But if you'd stay with me then I would be home
See I know that time can freeze all the memories
And so I'm letting go, and so I'm letting go

So where'd it all go wrong, know I made some mistakes
Maybe its all just me and all them's just the breaks but
Sometimes you conduct, sometimes you're tied to the tracks
Seen a lot more of the second, as a matter of fact
Can't even park, game tickets are luxury purchases
First they take the bread now its the circuses
But, they ain't chargin for churches its staving off the worthlessness
Stay in the services wondering who the serpents is
I'm putting my hard earned cash in that offering plate
And wondering what they're gonna buy next with my costly mistakes
Fitting a round life in a square shift is stiflin
Enough to send kids to cabinets rifling for some Vicodin
On the wrong side of a gap that's widening daily its frightening
Never realized I'd have to fight for them I'd give my life for them
In a land with tall buildings and short memories
Built on top of our islands, but sinking into the sea

You know you told me that time that you would never leave my side (I couldn't call it)
But babe that was the last time that I ever saw your eyes (right hand to God but my left clutchin my wallet)
You went away from me and now you're on your knees (pray for the fallen)
But now you're on your own, now you're on your own

Here on my own it feels all alone
But if you'd stay with me then I would be home
See I know that time can freeze all the memories
And so I'm letting go, and so I'm letting go
Here on my own it feels all alone
But if you'd stay with me then I would be home
See I know that time can freeze all the memories
And so I'm letting go, and so I'm letting go