Dealing With It

The day started off with a touch of bliss
And some faded regrets
Thought that I was ridding myself
Of the pain that they caused, overwhelming dread
But one hit me up, and texted means things
I began to hear my loud heartbeats
Now the feelings return and repeat
That little girl is back to haunt me

Oh oh oh oh
It cuts so deep, I start to bleed
No sign of ease, I'm suffocating

My heart can't seem to move on
The thoughts go on, on and on in my mind
The pain was supposed to be gone
Hiding somewhere way way afar

Now I see all this anger in me
I really just need some time to breathe
So can't you let this just be
I need to deal with the shit in me

And now I start to remember the times
I was left alone all behind
And I don't know why it's taken this long
For me to see it's hurting
Reliving the force on that bed
When all I see is the faces thats blurred
And then the time in the back of his car
The pressure so strong pushing back inside

Oh oh oh oh
It cuts so deep, I start to bleed
No sign of ease, I'm suffocating

My heart can't seem to move on
The thoughts go on, on and on in my mind
The pain was supposed to be gone
Hiding somewhere way way afar

Now I see all this anger in me
I really just need some time to breathe
So can't you let this just be
I need to deal with the shit in me

Wounded and scarred
Reminded so often
I'm stuck in this prison
With cold scary monsters
Oh oh oh oh

My heart can't seem to move on
The thoughts go on, on and on in my mind
The pain was supposed to be gone
Hiding somewhere way way afar

Now I see all this anger in me
I really just need some time to breathe
So can't you let this just be
I need to deal with the shit in me
Oh oh oh oh