Plague, Struggles, and Sin

He stumbled out and brought a shadow castle out in this, so
Lost the values that were brought, not so funny, now it seems
And his mother seem quite distraught
She believes that her son has lost the love she taught
The behaviours that was forged well
This could change

But it won't, don't know if never will
'Cause only hope for love's inside a pill
Searching for that something to realize
The fire that burn inside his eyes

Gonna cap out a quarter to four
Jacket all black and he's up and out the door
Tell his friends that he's home again but he's not
He's still so lost
And color drained from his face off
Crawling on his knees, scraping bone
Flesh piece on the mattress foam, well
This could change

But it won't, don't know if never will
'Cause only hope for love's inside a pill
Searching for that something to realize
The fire that burn inside his eyes

Thought you found that someone for him
You're sadly mistaken, he resorts to a bottle of gin
Gaze into the bottle for a glimpse of hope
The only thing he found was reflections that broke him
Left him on the ground, crying, but no one could hear a sound
Whispers of love, tremble escape
He closes his eyes, searching for the way to fate

But it won't, don't know if never will
'Cause only hope for love's inside a pill
Searching for that something to realize
The fire that burn inside his eyes

But he won't fight himself, no not at all
He lost his feelings when he's hard, tossed and tore
And as he sits, he questions what could've been
If he didn't turn his life into one of plague, struggles and sin