From Within

My mind is full of stupid thoughts
One day I woke up to write 'em all down
And I'm not quite finished yet
Matter fact this is just the beginning of it
And every sheet has a meaning to me
And it's hard to see
That somebody wouldn't share this belief
And it's hard to breathe
If you feel like the only who sees
A lonely disease
Lyrical quality about to decease
So this is how it's gonna be
A couple tryhard G's
Rap on soundcloud beats
Mumbling lyrics with a Hi-Hat bleed
An 808 below
And that's your masterpiece
My mind is full of stupid thoughts
One day I woke up to write 'em all down
And I'm not quite finished yet
Matter fact this is just the beginning of it
And even if you criticized what I did
The hardest critic
Is always me 'cause my shit
Can't be good enough
And I don't know this line doesn't fit here
Always under attack
And I don't know why it's rap
That I persue
I don't think that's what I'm good at
Do you?
But why else would I look back
When I left this game so many times to say goodbye
But always come right back to write another line
And this feels like a beginning to me
I'm beginning to breathe
And I'm beginning to see
That if I'm gonna be the person
That I wanted to be
It's gonna take another level of dedication
Eradicating the seas
So this is how it's gonna be
I'm getting in my own way now of making my beats
And for every word I'm writing down it's feeling like a victory
When I don't believe in me, so

When I
I crush me from the inside
I get to me from within I
Seem to be hating what I do
When I
I crush me from the inside
I get to me from within I
Seem to be hating what I do

Writing is easy they say
Just start at the beginning and then don't drift away
But if they would know
What is going on
Inside of my head
When I'm all alone
And I'm in the zone
I have no control
I have to beat it
Get rid of all the bullshit on the paper and repeat it
But this time I'm gonna use what I have learned for many reasons
I'm putting a verse together
That I really do believe in
And even if you feel no energy
Power is down
And you feel this is the whackest beat
Say you need something with a little electricity
I don't waste mine
For what you have to say to me
The only enemy I listen to: The inner me
Repeatedly telling me that I'll never hit the ceiling
But I don't see that I never seem to reach
The things I care about
But that are out of my belief and

When I
I crush me from the inside
I get to me from within I
Seem to be hating what I do
When I
I crush me from the inside
I get to me from within I
Seem to be hating what I do

And it might be hard to believe
But every time I write a line it falls into pieces
And I fall into grief
Not trusting the words that I read
Words that I read
Hard to believe
But every time I write a line I fall into grief
And it falls in with me
And I'm not trusting the words I read

When I
I crush me from the inside
I get to me from within I
Seem to be hating what I do
When I
I crush me from the inside
I get to me from within I
Seem to be hating what I do

And it might be hard to believe
But every time I write a line it falls into pieces
And I fall into grief
Not trusting the words that I read
Words that I read
Hard to believe
But every time I write a line I fall into grief
And it falls in with me
And I'm not trusting the words I read

When I