Internal Scars

(Yeah yeah yeah yeah)

How you gon' watch from outside of the club (Oh)
And tell me how it be (No, no, no, no)
Watching my moves just to try to find happiness
Lowkey these levels are tricky
Internal thoughts leave internal scars
And most of them ain't even healing
How you gon' judge off of who you are
If you never talked to me really (Yeah, yeah, yeah)

Putting my pain up to date (Date)
The first time it hit me was in the eighth grade (Grade)
A close friend had passed, I ain't know what to say (Say)
So I act to move past all emotions and pains (Pains)
Reminisce memories put down the drain
Way too much work to be ending this way
I never mourned so I grieve to this day
And it hurts to know I got a friend in the grave
Just listen with courtesy
Some people have worse than me
And I understand
We all fighting through pain
Handled in a few ways
I am who I am
The kid that just wanna be heard
I don't care about money or any accomplishments
Nor do I care if I'm getting called trash
I just don't think that I got the tolerance
And honestly
I lost too much people
To think that somebody on top of me
But probably
The chances of me going viral are just like the Lottery
I'm rapping bout' things that I go through
I know that I'll likely get judges
But I'm staying hungry
A chip on my shoulder
And I love to hold on to grudges

How you gon' watch from outside of the club (Oh)
And tell me how it be (No, no, no, no)
Watching my moves just to try to find happiness
Lowkey these levels are tricky (No, no, no)
Internal thoughts leave internal scars
And most of them ain't even healing
How you gon' judge off of who you are
If you never talked to me really

I'm asking why oh why
They keep talking on the style I'm on (Oh)
Shock the world like Bolt
And everybody think they styrofoam (Oh)
I'm talking real pain
For the ones who keep it hidden (Oh)
This ain't a mistake
God knows I'mma be the realest (Oh)
Why the game hate me just cuz I be lyrical
Let's talk about how I'm really a miracle (Oh)
Mama had tumors
They covered me in the womb
I kicked right through them
I wasn't gon' see a tomb (Oh)
I knew that I'd make it (Oh)
I knew I'd see angelic faces (Oh)
Look at me now
Living up sixteen years strong
And I move like a dawg out the pound (Oh)
I'll say it now
Lowkey some points where I thought
That I really had let myself down (Oh)
But I'm back and I'm cruising
Way too much work to be losing (No, no, no, no)
How you gon' claim that you know me
But you never stepped in my shoes man

How you gon' watch from outside of the club (Oh)
And tell me how it be (No, no, no, no)
Watching my moves just to try to find happiness
Lowkey these levels are tricky (No, no, no, no)
Internal thoughts leave internal scars
And most of them ain't even healing
How you gon' judge off of who you are
If you never talked to me really (Yeah, yeah, yeah)