Die Alone

I got this voice in my head
I need to get out of bed
Don't feel like checking my phone
I'll just ignore it instead
It's telling me get up and go
Said I should be focusing more
It knows all my thoughts and how I been combating
I know it's still trying me though
Like
Hey Cam, come try this pill
It might change how you feel
Just let me take control
You think we got a deal
Nah
I just been taking my time
If it happens it happens but there ain't no need
For me to be wasting my prime
It want me committing to crimes to please the ones that want me to fail
I plan on longevity even if solo, I'm hoping you wishing me well
I never kiss and tell
The voice just want me to take to the streets
I just been working my pace
I'm finally getting a moment of peace
I'm finally getting to sleep
Without the thoughts I used to have
Some of the reason is cause I've been overexerting when I'm in the lab
Guess it's no reason to lie
Cause I'm only gon lie to myself
Can't be afraid to cry
When it's me against myself

I don't wanna feel like this
I don't wanna go through this
I just wanna get this voice out of my head
Don't gotta cure for this
It's strong but I must resist
It says I'll walk this road alone until I'm dead
You gon die
You gon die
You gon die
You gonna die alone
You gon die
You gon die
You gon die
You gonna die alone

I know my mama want some grands
But it's out of her hands
Started feeling kinda guilty but
She understands
That my mind ain't what it used to be
Who gon come through for me
Blaming my anxiety cause I know what it do to me
Now the voice is back
It's telling me things that I really don't wanna hear
Wish I could silence the noise
But sadly it's here until I can stop living in fear
Used to be chasing the joy
Now I'm becoming somebody I don't wanna know
I gotta empty home
Maybe it's true
I'm really gon die alone

I refuse to give in to this nuisance
This my life I'm done making excuses
I'm just a piece of things my mind produces
I won't let it choose this
I refuse to give in to this nuisance
This my life I'm done making excuses
I'm just a piece of things my mind produces
I won't let it choose this

I don't wanna feel like this
I don't wanna go through this
I just wanna get this voice out of my head
Don't gotta cure for this
It's strong but I must resist
It says I'll walk this road alone until I'm dead
You gon die
You gon die
You gon die
You gonna die alone
You gon die
You gon die
You gon die
You gonna die alone