Waiting to Be Somewhere Else

I'm waiting to be somewhere else
I'm waiting to be somewhere else
While everyone's content with themselves
I'm waiting to be someone else

It doesn't matter if I'm well
A quiet home becomes my hell
It's no surprise I'm on the shelf
I'm waiting to become myself

I'm waiting to be somewhere else
And I don't need any of your help
Even if I'm in poor health
I've got to take care of myself

I was fortified in silence
Four walls to birth this blindness
From anything that's pure and concrete
My mind is forced to deplete

And I keep emptying out to fill the pages
To free these ideas from their cages
I was welcome and I was worth it
No I was welcome 'cause I was worthless

So I'll be waiting here again
Though I'm more scared than I've ever been
If something good's around the bend
I'd still be waiting until my end

And I know I've been so angry
And I know I don't have an answer
And I know you could be better for me
And I hate you, though I love you
I can't name you, I'm above you and I'm tired of you

So I never say goodbye
I'm still waiting for this to die
I never gave you a reply
Can't even bring myself to try