Above

Did it on my own
Issues had to face
Still lost been alone
All I see is hate
She told me that I'm different I hope you never change
But she don't know the times that I almost gave into it all my faith
Been a little struck
I saw me for what I was
I see things that you don't get
These days I can't really trust
All these people that's around
I created all these sounds
I created all these ghosts I keep this shit to myself
All these fucking conversations I can't tell if those were real
These days I can't even think these days I don't feel fulfilled
After all these years with my back against the wall and I'm fighting still
It's too hard to even notice half the time and that's been my biggest fear

Tryna walk down this path I made
Thought I was made just to create
Create a world for my great escape
Running all over switching lanes
Stuck in this cycle that's how it goes
Living with thoughts that just won't go
Dead but I just saw the physical
All in my head man it's all a show
Tryna live with all my sacrifices
Everything that I was sacrificing
Living with pain man so obsessed with this life I'm living had to find some vices
People look at me a little different
Keep it all to myself dismissive
Moving forward I got love y'all but there's a couple that I love from a distance
I'm everything that I never wanted
I'm sick of myself what I've become
Keep telling myself of all this nonsense
Came a long way of where I'm from
So why the fuck am I in denial that's not the way that I taught myself
Steering this ship in the wrong direction lost and directed with no fucking help I
Put the weight all on my back
I went through it by the time when you passed
I was stupid from running away but they couldn't relate to the loss understand
I was stuck in the system like all of these kids we were here for no reason but just to survive
Know I'm addicted I hate to relive it but those were the moments when I was alive
I was scared for my life all these families I didn't know what to do stuck in the mud
All of these questions that I couldn't ask cuz I barely knew you, you already judged
Been through the madness i saw all the chaos we never connected man there was no love
No matter what happens I know that you're here for me I'm doing this for my grandmama above



Credits
Writer(s): Joseph Uribe
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