Worthwhile

My first time being in the studio in like, over a year, man
I just, I have not been happy, I'm not gonna lie to you
This life shit is hard as fuck, bruh
And it's like
I don't know man
No motivation, no inspiration
You gotta try to get it back

I ain't been happy for a while, I'm just being honest
To be 100, I'm still living cuz I promised
And every day I find it harder just to crack a smile
But a lotta times I find some shit that makes it all worthwhile
Like when my niece laughs or when I hear a funny joke
When my mom calls me every day and asks me, "how it go?"
Or when people say they like my music, Imma make it one day
And when I'm with my girl, it feels like everything's okay

And when I'm in her arms, it feels like someone loves me
I feel it in my soul every time she kiss and hug me
I want her here forever, that's an understatement
Cuz every time she touch me, man, it just makes me feel so lovely
She's the only thing that inspires me now
And even then, I can't think of nothing just to write down
I used to use my pain, but now I feel worse
And all this bad shit I'm going through, it starts to feel like I'm cursed
I don't even think made for this, just to be real
How can I be a rapper if I can't write how I feel
How can I hold the mike if I can't pick up a pen
Every day I consider the thought that maybe this should end
All the money, all the time, chalk it up as an L
Take Red Arrow and the music, put that shit on the shelf
And just blend into society and just try to survive
But then I wouldn't be living, I'd just be alive

I ain't been happy for a while, I'm just being honest
To be 100, I'm still living cuz I promised
And every day I find it harder just to crack a smile
But a lotta times I find some shit that makes it all worthwhile
Like when my niece laughs or when I hear a funny joke
When my mom calls me every day and asks me, "how it go?"
Or when people say they like my music, Imma make it one day
And when I'm with my girl, it feels like everything's okay