sleep away

I don't like who I used to be
But I'm almost eighteen and I'm still tryna find out who to be
Life's still feelin' new to me
Me and the old me is like if there's two of me
But we're one in the same
'Cause everything's changed but nothin' has changed
I am such a burden for everyone I talk to
To everyone, I promise that it's me and not you
That's real, I still feel certain ways
I'm always lookin' up but there are certain days when I
When I feel down
On the raps, it's hard to keep it real now
'Cause I'm rappin' 'bout money and girls I don't get
But I enjoy it, it helps me feel confident
That's real
But am I a fake?
Sometimes I don't even know why I'm awake
And I've stopped postin' so much on socials
Because I get too addicted and that feeds my antisocial nature
And I always struggle wonderin' if talkin' openly
Is somethin' I should do 'cause then people will tell me who I'm supposed to be
I would love to make more songs like this but I feel like don't have anything deep to say
So I'll stay wonderin' who to be today
Like I said, I don't know why I be awake
So ima go sleep away