Awake

Uh
Feel like a dead man walking
The sedative in my head is defective
I called it
It's diabolic
If I try to acknowledge it
The world'll label me as an outcast
And I'll get accused
Beaten
Bruised
We can
Lose
It shouldn't effect the way the people see me
You see me on the corner or the tv
Wikipedia it devious I'm leading us
A way that isn't tedious because
Whatcha know about them suicidal thoughts
Every time you go ta sleep
Yeah I'm serious let's talk about it
Obvious it hits home for me
Otherwise I wouldn't get up on the mic
And make a song about it
What you got wrong about it
Is I never rap about some shit I haven't witnessed
The truth is in the sentence for ya
I can find ride or dies in my bloodline
So if you wanna go fine
I'll be good
I never fit in with the cool kids
Then again I never really tried hard to
I just thought that
They wouldn't get me
It's not like they pushed poked and kicked me
But then I brought in a copy of my mixtape
It got mixed hate
But I got respect from it
Who woulda guessed I would
Have done a couple more
By time I was 21 I had bout 200 songs
Then my streams just dropped off
My shit wasn't important
And I thought that often
Then everybody started hoping on this rap train
Ironic enough I was trying ta hop off
At the time I was pretty low
But then the thought to make Day Dreamer came along
I
Recorded fifty something songs for that mothafucka
That year I dropped three full albums
Now I'm back with the sequel
And I'm no longer depressed
I can't see no evil
I don't clamp up when I see people
Extend a hand cause I seen what peace do
True
And as for suicidal thoughts they're gone
And I owe my thanks ta god
I'm still day dreaming
Even on days off
But that's just part of the thing dog
It's phase one

They don't wanna see me winning
They don't
They don't
They don't
They don't
But ta hell wit em
I'm on I-95 going 95 wit the windows down alright
I gotta let my demons go go go go
Am I awake or
Still dreaming
I don't but
Woah
Shit

911 what's your emergency