Ghosts

Tides are changing so fast I'm getting whiplash
Can't tell the difference 'tween what's fiction and what is fact
Stopped paying attention to what's wrong, now I can't fix that
Every time I try to compare lies with the truth, the two get mismatched
Thought I already put this all to rest so how come I can't kick back
Fears piling up on myself more than my shelves pile up with knick knacks
Feeling uncertain, so I gotta stay up on my toes, no tic tac
I already know what's lurking, do I have the courage to admit that
Don't want no ghost of who I used to be to haunt me
I know my true identity will never fade out
The tracks rattling now, either time to lay down
Or jump into the moving boxcar, and not be seen
And not get off til I'm free from inner controversy
Stop following me, told you, you're no longer me
But you ascend from the cemetery to get revenge on me
I'm already who I wanna be, why's it always gotta be, like

Something's always peering over my shoulder
Left alone in my mind, atmosphere getting colder
Pulling me from behind, how am I supposed to move forward
Scared to keep my eyes open, because I live with all these ghosts

This one's for all the love letters that are signed with my name
Even though I didn't send them, replies came in today
They, gave me the strength it takes to stay true
Facing all the voices saying we're gonna break you
They're only bending me, since day one, I kept the vision
My integrity, they ain't taking til I'm finished
Until the death of me, I ain't playing, still I'll win it
Being the best I can be, one of a kind, ok, let's get it
The boy ain't left the wild, the wilderness just looks different
I'm still the king of my jungle, these creatures just grew more vicious
Man I've been reigning so long, feels like I've only been drizzling
Opening the flood gates, now they know I ain't kidding
I didn't line up my ducks, 'cause of course, they're easy targets
This ain't a shot in the darkness, I know what the mark is
Drag my name through the dirt, but it ain't coming out tarnished
It'll keep shining bright, listen, I'm just getting started because

Something's always peering over my shoulder
Left alone in my mind, atmosphere getting colder
Pulling me from behind, how am I supposed to move forward
Scared to keep my eyes open, because I live with all these ghosts

This ain't how it's meant to be, how it's meant to be now
I can't find my peace of my mind
When the ghosts keep befriending me, befriending me
And I start to believe that they're kind
Can we let them rest in peace, let them rest in peace now
So maybe they can leave this time
Cause they're still not dead to me, still not dead to me now
How can I find my peace of mind

Because I live with all these ghosts