Ghosts

Ay wait I never had a fuckin ounce of soul
Stand around and let these people know
I been hurt and shits been gettin old
If you knew the crazy shit I told
You would take the weight of fuckin gold
I been faded daily anymore
Battle pain it's like the alamo
Showing off its like a talent show
Tellin' stories Edgar Allen Poe
All I'm ever fuckin feeling low
I could change a letter to a note
I could get better I could go
I could feel better but I don't
Crazy when I met her
Now I know
There's pain and love in all the songs I wrote
They break the trust the heart and than the soul
I pray above but God been on the road
I changed it up now I've been feelin ghost
I worked to give it everything and fought
Got hurt and made decisions without thought
I've burned some banks and bridges and it got
Me cursed to make a living without cause

Battle this pain with my back to the wall
Chasin the fame yea I'm after it all
I told you what I would say from the start
So why did you have to go play with my heart
You starting problems but I'm not involved
I was asleep so I missed your call
I don't why but I got no soul
I'm gettin high to feel like a ghost

I started having dreams of my success
It's just another thing I manifest
Don't say it but I scream it from my chest
I'm anxious and it brings me into stress
I wish I had a reason not to lie
The music's been what's keeping me alive
I choose to sin it's eating me inside
The hornet nest is stinging at my mind
Takin medicine to numb the nausea
Turned a semicolon to a comma
Burn the shit I'm rolling then I called ya
Now you got meg thinking bout my karma
I've done shit I couldn't tell my mama
I've been distant you've been drifting longer
Told you he's the snake and not a charmer
Find me when it can't go any farther

Battle this pain with my back to the wall
Chasin the fame yea I'm after it all
I told you what I would say from the start
So why did you have to go play with my heart
You starting problems but I'm not involved
I was asleep so I missed your call
I don't why but I got no soul
I'm gettin high to feel like a ghost

Thinking I should leave it in the past
Maybe I just fall in love too fast
Someone told me that it'd never last
I told them that they can kiss my ass
I don't wanna leave you in the dust
You're the only person that I trust
Told you I was hurting cuz I was
And you've been a surgeon to my cuts
I don't want you knowing who I am
I don't usually show It cuz i can't
Wish that I could help you understand
If you only gave me just a chance
Girl you got me speeding when I'm driving
Thinking bout him cheating on you lying
I don't need a reason to be quiet
Talk about your man but I don't like him