Fuzz

I think that it's substance abuse, fuzzed to the brain
Face with the truth I wont function the same
Blood on my shoes with no one to blame
Now constable Bruce has got something to say

Switching my moods up everyday paranoid
Don't leave my room, scared of what I can destroy
Long as my blue cup filled I'm a happy boy
Fly up to Jupiter move like an astroid

Sick of the music, they no longer listen
My 22 tracks were forgotten by Christmas
Stress on my mind, I put stress on my missus
This is the third time I've had hospital visits

Suicide watch always try to escape
Security guards hold me down by the face
Inject me with something I'm starting to fade
I close both of my eyes and I wake up in space

I've been around here
I've seen it before them
I watch 'em all drown here
I simply ignore them, soldiers lineup I deploy them
Gunning 'em down from my fortress
Thoughts in my mind they are haunted
Every day trying to destroy them
Shut 'em all out with the poison

You drink to have fun, mate, I drink to forget
Saturday nights only binge with the best
Me and myself we got things to confess
So we talk shit 'till both of us simply forget

Fuck a responsible man, I'mma clear it
These memories fade with two bottles of spirits
I don't like to see my own face in the mirror
It only reminds me of days I saw clearer

Sippin' Coronas away from the virus
Netflix for days 80 smokes with a lighter
Every day banging a beat that is tighter
Yet I still can't find one that really inspires

I think I should quit or just simply retire
None of my shit that I speak is real fire
I only really do this for me it was kinda
Surprised when the people kept hitting the likes up

I've been around here
I've seen it before them
I watch 'em all drown here
I simply ignore them, soldiers lineup I deploy them
Gunning 'em down from my fortress
Thoughts in my mind they are haunted
Every day trying to destroy them
Shut 'em all out with the poison

Yeah, this shit reminds me of when I did ashtray
Drinkers remorse in a bad place
Money fades, so does a fan base
Nine to five work and a couple of cans mate

I don't listen what they say
Still running from bitches that cray cray
Painkillers don't kill a brainache
Maybe it's time for a permanent vacay

Maybe I'll go back to Thailand
Or blow all my money in Vegas
My heart stay colder then Iceland
My girl is so warm it's contagious

I need to quit all the fuck around
Quit or I won't see my old ages
Quit before I'm 6 feet underground
I'm on a mission to make it

I've been around here
I've seen it before them
I watch 'em all drown here
I simply ignore them, soldiers lineup I deploy them
Gunning 'em down from my fortress
Thoughts in my mind they are haunted
Every day trying to destroy them
Shut 'em all out with the poison