Insecure

You won't see it if you looked at a glance
All this shit that I had, people took from my hands
I been cooked in a trance while I look for a dance
With the devil, no feet, instead of looking I scamper
From the place that I'm supposed to call home
To a place that don't exist yeah my plan
Is to go from shit to nowhere that's what I ran with
It's like I'm barely a man
I been on hiatus I hated the people
Cause they all so basic and they all been changing
Man it's so crazy I'm wavy of late
But it's like I keep making the same old mistakes
But stayed on the course that I'm taking straight to the beast no way it's fabricated
You can hate if you want I could scrape through a job
But to be honest I'm sick of waiting
Man I bide my time for so long
I don't know what I do with it
What could really go wrong
I'd rather work on the music shit
I'm screwing it
By wasting time on shit that I won't need
At a job that I won't have go back
Start of the beat cause I swear that my phone's tapped
I'm just paranoid
Yeah maybe I am but what if I'm not?
How the fuck can I rise to the top if I don't do shit but watch time on a clock?
They say you can fall or fly but I'm lost
No GPS, how much time do I got?
And what goes up must come down
It felt like I'm running so high now I drop
Not a bad day, it's a bad life
Covered up with a tilt of my hat right
Ain't nobody see the shit in my bagged eyes
Play it off like I'm tired and it's nap time
But sleep is the cousin of death
They go hand in hand till I'm stuck in a bed
They say you can't live without no regrets
But I regret being left for dead, fuck
Life's a race and I've been overtaken
Over waiting and I'm so mistaken
There's no escaping, too low to face it
Everything I hear adds weight to my brain
Able to change but a slave to the same
I enabled it mate
I'm staying this way till they take me to grave
Already got that note on my bedside
Product of no close friends and a dead mind
Plus words that I don't mean let fly
I doubt I'll get out of it for the tenth time
By a simple appearance I'm fine
Nothing and everything's up though
These are the years when I'm supposed to have shined
How the fuck can I shine when I cry in my bed bro?
I feel diseased cause I'm fine then I'm gone
Let's be honest I'm not righting my wrongs
I write it in a song, finally I'm going right
In the wrong place when the timing is wrong
So go, and leave, I'm not like anyone
I don't fit anywhere, I don't get any love
And I hate it, I hate family men
Cause I want what they have but I grabbed a pen instead
I can barely snag a friend
I'm always wandering asking what happening
God damn it, it might've stopped the thoughts
And the preparation for ending it all
Now I don't need no help
I'm sorry for the shit that's missing from the shelf
So go, and leave, I'm not like anyone
I don't fit anywhere, I don't get any love
So go, and leave, I'm not like anyone
I don't fit anywhere, I don't get any love