Unfamiliar

I know you lost a lot but you can't keep holding on
They don't understand you like your Rosetta Stone
Your feelings are unhappy and you won't let it go
They can't love the real you if it you never let it show
You made another album but you're to scared to release it
You talk about God but you're fighting all your demons
You got to vulnerable and that's your biggest weakness
Opened up a lot but you hate to share your secrets
Made a song for a friend who passed away last month
But disrespected her family how could you be that dumb
You're past is catching up and this time there's nowhere to run
From all the people you cried to lied to and shunned
Yeah you're right
I know that I'm different
I know there's a lot of hate in me
I know I sound ignorant
The clock is racing me
I know there's great in me
Maybe you failed to see
Maybe it's all make belief
So please step back
I respect that
You wanna love me
I reject that
Tell me to smile
But I feel sad
Can't come inside
They neglect that
Call me crazy
I'll embrace it
Call me lazy
I can take it
It don't phase me
It's to basic
I'll take your safety
And I'll break it
They don't know who they messing with
Wish for me and that's a death wish
Called me twice and left eight messages
Then you left again
Said it was love but I never can
I'm a scumbag dressed like a gentleman
Found God and lost my Christian friends
But I never needed them
First girl left me so I left the second then I left the rest and
They don't recommend it so I do my best to blend in
Start a friendship just to watch the ending it's a dead end
But I went hit the sign and went flying over the fences
Yeah I guess you crazy ain't yah
Just like Egypt you're so ancient
Turn the lights off in the basement
Like your doctor you're missing patience
You've been wasting everyday since
You thought chasing love was greatness
She needs space just like a spaceship
Love is pain without containment
You so broke I think you need to make some changes
Everything must be glass cause nothing is painless
Dreams are like a race you'll lose if you start chasing
So you gotta work on yourself and just be patient
I don't really need you but thanks for the advice
Yeah I made mistakes but I don't make em twice
Took advantage of my heart so I quit acting nice
Knife in the back so I equipped a bag of ice
I'm a monster don't come closer
Then I kill you call it closure
They all want exposure
If you are me then you're a soldier
Can the army pull me over
Going sixty on a dozer
Next time I'll go slower
While I eat grass like a mower
My pain is going nowhere
This weight is on my shoulder
I can't feel any lower
I guess I'm like the joker
I laugh so I don't show it
My chances are like candles
I hope that I don't blow it
But my plans already canceled