Delusions

I think it's been about a month since we last talked
I was on the sidewalk
Drying my eyes off
Listening to Drizzy Jamie Foxx why do I fall
For your type all the time I guess it's my fault
That I walked out here on the tight rope
With my high hopes
And my eyes closed
Really thought the stars would align
What did I know
I was being fed all of these lies so I thought I might just try to roll the dice

Now I know you didn't care about me
I was just too fuckin' happy
In my delusions
Really thought that we were a thing
Turning french I talked about we
I'm such a loser

I was only a fan
But I made it seem like I was your man
And I'm sorry for that
It won't happen again
But fuck you for playing me like you did

I told my friends it started getting real between us two
I mean was that not true
You always acted different when you had a drink or two
Drunk words sober thoughts
You'd hit my phone at 12 o'clock telling me "I miss you"
I haven't seen you in a year
What was I was supposed to hear
And I've always had a thing for you I thought I made that clear
I was only gonna be in this city for 3 more months
Guess she took that as a sign for her to go and have some fun
And I just had to listen
I could tell she was only yearning for my attention
She had a worm on the hook and last night I learned my lesson
She ripped it right through my flesh when she said "I value friendship"
Like she ain't know what she was doing
Bitch you know what you was doing
I know cuz even I knew it
I was just delusional ain't nobody you were fooling
I was only kidding myself cuz I didn't wanna ruin
All the shit that we had going on
For us I wanted more
But just believe I won't forget all of these times
Valuable lessons that I just gotta learn in life
Keep the memories I just wish I could get my time back
Rolling in my feels now I'm just smoking up this dime bag

Cuz now I know you didn't care about me
I was just too fuckin' happy
In my delusions
Really thought that we were a thing
Turning french I talked about we
I'm such a loser

I was only a fan
But I made it seem like I was your man
And I'm sorry for that
It won't happen again
But fuck you for playing me like you did
Yeah I was your number one fan
And I really felt like I was your man
And I'm sorry for that
It won't happen again
But fuck you for playing me like you did

I know she probably gon' be listening to this now
K if you are please take a sec to go and hear me out
I'm sorry I got passion yo
But you got a fat ass and all
And by the way I didn't give a fuck about the Bachelor
I just wanted shit that we could talk about
We'd talk for fuckin' hours
Even shared a playlist on Spotify that was only ours
Remember the first song you put on the list
Well if you don't then you should check it again
Cuz that shit had me convinced
That this was finally it
I went through quarantine depressed of opportunities missed
But I accepted that shit
I finally moved on from it
Just when I started doing me you hit my phone up again
So I gave in and I bit
Man I thought I was the shit
You said I was the only person in this city you missed
And I cannot make this shit up
Bitch you had me fucked up
I wanted you so bad
You just wanted your fun

Now I know you gave no fucks about me
I was just too fuckin' happy
In my delusions
Really thought that we were a thing
Turning french I talked about we
I'm such a loser

I was only a fan
But I made it seem like I was your man
And I'm sorry for that
It won't happen again
But fuck you for playing me like you did
Yeah I was your number one fan
And I really felt like I was your man
And I'm sorry for that
It won't happen again
But fuck you for playing me like you did