The Gathering

I'm the lowest I've been
Sleeplessness sinking in
I can't go back to what I've been
I don't want to breathe
If it do it might find me
All I've been hiding from

I was promised love
I was promised the wonder you feel when you look in their eyes
I was promised the best time of my life
It's a lie cuz I have found nothing but crying
Sleepless nights losing my mind
Come back to me
I need comforting

Enter the gathering
Mothers anciently surrounding
As I am down on my knees
They hold me the mothers they hold me
Enter the gathering
Mothers anciently surrounding
As I am down on my knees
They hold me the mothers they hold me

I can't trust what I'm becoming
Body bruised and broken
No longer made of something
Worthy of beauty or esteem
Society has spoken
And somehow I believed

But I couldn't possibly, no I couldn't be
Be rid of the evidence, they were a part of me
Soft place that once was a home
How dare it remains now that they've gone
I can't go on trying to hide while looking behind at what hadn't made life
I don't need hiding, I need comforting

Enter the gathering
Mothers anciently surrounding
As I am down on my knees
They hold me the mothers they hold me
Enter the gathering
Mothers anciently surrounding
As I am down on my knees
They hold me the mothers they hold me

Fragmented parts scattered across
Parts of me weeping, whispers of loss
Creation, destruction, expansion
It all feels so much

How hard it is to hold this shame
To speak it out loud and call it by name
Bravely I asked, they whispered
They felt the same

Whispers to wailing until it rings clear
You're not broken, there's nothing to fear
They say we're here
We're here
And we hear

Enter the gathering
Mothers anciently surrounding
So you can fall to your knees
We're holding you
Mothers are holding you
Enter the gathering
You're safe there's space for surrendering
The pain, the grief, the shame
Let it lift
There you'll remain
Wholly, Wholly
You are whole, you are whole, you are whole, you are whole
You are holy