Just A Boy

I still remember, the day I found out
I was, sitting in class when the teacher called me out
She said your, parents are here, yeah it's time for you to go
When I saw my momma crying that's when I knew it was bad oh
I know my mother, inside out
I can tell when something's wrong without a shadow of a doubt
I could tell that someone died just by the look in her eyes
When she told me it was you, I broke down and cried too

I have this feeling, I've had it for a while
I've been stuck inside my head and the way out feels like a mile
I'm scared of what's next, I really hope there's more.
Oh I hope when it's my time yeah you're waiting at the door
What's my purpose? Am I here for a reason?
Some of the questions I've been asking when I should be sleeping
Asked my friends how they felt, they said they didn't care
If you're there God help me please I'm really scared

I'm just a boy
I'm not made of steel
They think they know me
They're tryna tell me how to feel

I love you, I know I never said it aloud
But your name was the first word I said out loud
I'm learning polish man, wish you could could tell me you're proud
But you can't cuz you're three damn feet under ground
You're not here anymore and it's hard to take in
That you'll never meet my wife or moja córka i syn
And she's amazing, I don't even know where to begin
But I know that you would love her as if she's your own kin
I remember, when you cried when you met her
Now she's looking at your casket wishing she knew you better
I don't wanna give it up but I got nothing in the tank
Lost in the heat of it all like I'm Frank
And what do they know, bout' what I've been through
First I lost you and then my confidence too
Cuz they don't know what's it's like to walk a mile in my shoes
And if they did then they wouldn't say the things that they do

I'm just a boy
I'm not made of steel
They think they know me
They're tryna tell me how to feel

Sometimes I wish that I could just go to sleep
And wait for this to pass like it's all just a dream
Wish I could wake up in my bed, covered in sweat
And thank God it was a dream that I could forget
I'm lonely, no one's listening to me
Tryna spread the word but they don't see what I see
And they won't just let me be, agree to disagree
Instead they tear me down and slander me all of their own decree
What do they have to gain, by putting me through pain
My only sin being that I went against the grain
Steady flow of negativity through my brain
And when I try to break the chain it's all in vain
My heart is broken and busted, I don't know who to put my trust in
My ego's like a car that drives slow and it's rusty
How come everything they said about me was destructive
If you heard the things said man you'd be disgusted

I'm just a boy
I'm not made of steel
They think they know me
They're tryna tell me how to feel
I'm just a boy
I'm not made of steel
They think they know me
They're tryna tell me how to feel