Tell Myself

I saw somebody leap to the other world
Jumping off the edge left behind his hope
But he could fly for a second incredible
I wonder what it was like when he finally fell

They say you hit the water and then it's gone
All the tears you cried all the pain you felt
But is it worth all the hurt that you've probably caused
When they find that you don't make it back to shore

To be honest
Sometimes I think about all of the same things
I wish I could go back so I could change all of my memories
'Cause all of them are sad
All the drinks I had
Turned into a pool of misery
I wonder if I'm better drowning

I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No
I try to tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No

They celebrate the life that they never knew
Can't point out the elephant in the room
Most people can't understand what you're going through
So in the end does it matter the path you choose?

To be honest
Sometimes I feel like I'm feeling the same things
I wish there was a way that I could tell this to my family
But they'd only be sad
Maybe I don't have
Any point in being here
It's so unclear if I'm swimming or sinking

I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No
I try to tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No

I'll turn my headlights on
Speeding 'cross the bridge
No it won't be long
But I got to be strong

And I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
I gotta tell myself
No no no no no no no no

And I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
I gotta tell myself
No no no no no no no no

I tell myself