Bad Habits (Interlude)

Um so, suppose I'm just wondering
If you could tell me more about how you've been feeling
I mean, say this past week?

I got lots of habits, and I know that I am not okay
Empty souls in clubs, and all they do is party everyday
Trust me I ain't judgin', cause I'm part of them in every way
But let me take you back, to how we came into this fuckin place
Walked into a party, all we hear is heavy 808's
Bitches in the bathroom doing shit that I don't wanna say
Met a couple niggas, didn't know they were some criminals
Young and fuckin' reckless but were forced to grow up anyway
Now we caught up in a little cycle of this pleasure pain
Came into a point where we don't care cause we just numb the pain
Slidin' through the back door of a strip club, keep these dancers paid
I'm not talkin' throwin' cash, talkin' bout the white cocaine
Heading to another party, drunk and I can't see a thing
Now it's just a daily thing, and I'm not even tryna escape
Maybe this was meant to be so guess I'll grab a pint of lean
Then I met this friend, now her name is unidentified
Met her in a room where she was takin couple Adderall's
Didn't even ask but I could tell that she was feeling pain
This is what she said, when I asked her why she felt this way
Tears all in her eyes said, "I don't wanna live no more
I don't see a reason why I still should be alive yunno?
I just lost a baby and I did it cause I couldn't coupe
Pressure from these people, made me do some things I didn't know
Now I'm 21 but I don't wanna fuckin live no more"

I can't find the motivation for the things I used to enjoy
I used to love doing sports or going out and
Now I just prefer to lay in bed and not really do anything

Now I saw the tears and they were droppin' down like waterfall
Told me all her stories, about the bruises on her body no
She said she felt trapped, and couldn't find a way to let it go
I'm just sitting listening and shit got me emotional
Told her all the things I should've told myself a while ago
You should leave this place and never look back cause it's fucking cold
Your still young so you could find the things that you been looking for
Told her to hold on and she said fuck it you can keep the faith
Next week I came back, and she was gone and didn't leave a trace
Some told me that she was dead, and some said that she moved away then
Then I looked around and found she almost took her life away
Now she in coma and I didn't even know her name
Started to see thing a little different now I wanna escape
Most my niggas stuck and they too deep and couldn't find a way
Couldn't get 'em out, and so I tried to fuckin' run away
Run away and so I tried to run away
Couple years go by and I'm just lookin' at myself now
Looked into the mirror said "you did it now you up" now
Remember all those things, but now you're climbing to the top now
People heard your songs, and they say damn you are a star now

Yo, remember when you were making beats back in high school?
I'm proud of you G, came a long way

Lastly, I just wanna tell the people that it's all okay
One thing that is true is that we all got expiration dates
You might feel alone, and you might think that this is just a phase
Please hold on and keep it going, promise you'll see better days
Now you see me smile cause you just never seen the darker days
Brodie said be careful cause these niggas tryna take your place
He don't even know it, but it changed my life for better ways
This is only half the story, rest I'm gonna tuck away

So, it sounds like it was affecting you, it it's draining you of your energy
Like like your body can't be bothered, I think that's a really good way of describing it
And you you're noticing sleep problems as well
Do you feel better, or do you feel worse?