Same Thing

It's still the same thing you want from me
It's still the same thing I fear to see
It's still the same thing you want from me
It's still the same thing I fear to see

See I thought that I crawled out the void
Back out the black to the laughs and joy
Smacks out the cracks of the lips of the coy
Black dogs in the shade look to seek and destroy
I came back to life
Steel clad heart, not about to die
Not one fear, I could classify
But your demons like to fraternise

Felt a win, I chapped a grin
Was warm within, my die second turn of the spin
Your pride is thin, you tried to cling
I fear nothing, excluding the state I was in
The state where my chest was the stark and the hollow
A smile was a fraud, not a tear could've followed

The state where I feel no thing, except for the canine's sin
Except for your ice cold sting
Except for the vices within
Except for your molars that pierce every inch of my skin
When that ends then the numbness begins
And I pray and I pray I could feel anything but alone

It's still the same thing, same thing, same thing
I fear you, I fear you, yeah
It's still the same thing, same thing, same thing
I fear you, I fear you, yeah

It's still the same thing you want from me
It's still the same thing I fear to see
It's still the same thing you want from me
It's still the same thing I fear to see

I remember the scent of happiness
I still smell it most the time
Just a baby, now I'm nappy-less
Keep the crying left inside
An apple a day just might be working
I've seen the sunshine more than rain
I still fear a creature lurking
And that I'll never feel again, yeah

Smile in the teeth but my trusting is skewed
PTSD from my soul black and blue
Dance on the line linking love to a bruise
And my heart terrified when I'm thinking of you
I fell in the west but my hope's in the east
Fright in the night from the hounds that I've seen
And all blessings fall like a priest in the sheets
I'm the chief of deceased when I snarl in the face of the beast

It's still the same thing, same thing, same thing
I fear you, I fear you yeah
It's still the same thing, same thing, same thing
I fear you, I fear you, yeah (I fear)
I fear you, I fear you, yeah

You just want the rush
I just feel the, ugh
You just want the rush
I just feel the, uh, uh
You just want the rush
I just feel the, ugh
You just want the rush
I just feel the, uh, uh

Yeah, I can't keep looking back when you come my way
When you come my way
I can't keep looking back when you come my way
When you come my way, yeah