Ego Death - Demo

Could you let me catch my breath
Before you speak your mind?
Could you let me take a drink
Before you throw me in the fire?
I don't want to believe
Anything you say
But you might be right this time

Would it help to know
That I got what I deserved?
Trapped on the other side
Of the bridges I have burned
I've lived with the consequences
Of living my life blind and senseless
All the years spent running reckless
Denying truth that I could've accepted

I try to open my eyes
But the sun is too bright
I think I'm making progress
But I'm falling behind
And I can't explain this feeling
But I know that something has to change

I've been kept awake by the decisions that I've made
Haven't grasped the lessons that I had to learn the hard way
One step forward and two steps backwards
Pick up the pieces when the daydream shatters
I just wanna do something that matters
Something real and not manufactured

I swear to God I can change
I swear to God