Not Like TV

I get jealous for no reason
Insecure I hate the feeling
Cause then I sit quiet intimidated by silence
Irritated by why I act this way

I changed my college major about five times
I'm scared to make a wrong decision so I'm indecisive
But how am I supposed to know where I wanna go
Or who I wanna be ten years from now

I don't know myself lately
Swear my mind's going crazy
Cause I

I get mad at my friends sometimes
Never say what's on my mind
Cause I cry when I'm angry they would hate me
Say I was a baby I was weak
I get mad at myself some days
But I can't leave my own company
So I take it out on my family
Been doing it lately
They say I've been changing and I'd agree
It's a 21st century thing

I always spend way too much time scrolling through my phone
Don't know why I do it it's so stupid
Cause I always feel alone
But I'll still post a picture
And then go to sleep
Get excited when someone likes it in the morning

I don't know myself lately
Swear my mind's going crazy
Cause I

I get mad at my friends sometimes
Never say what's on my mind
Cause I cry when I'm angry they would hate me
Say I was a baby I was weak
I get mad at myself some days
But I can't leave my own company
So I take it out on my family
Been doing it lately
They say I've been changing and I'd agree
It's a 21st century thing
Everyone's hurting and everyone's worried
I'm having trouble falling asleep
It's just a 21st century thing

Wish I could tell my younger self when I was twelve that
Life gets kind of crazy a bit hazy sometimes
It's not like TV
It's the 21st century