Paralysis

Your grand lifestyle's feints hiding guilt
Nailed to stilts in your crowd
Point my head to the clouds
Now endowed, you can fail em and you're still kept 'round
Double down while you can till they all find out
You wanted my harassment
You blast my every action
Your girlfriend wrote your posts
Hope you're proud of all the acting
I'm posed to be your poison
Abusers live in factions
I'd love to see them scramble
I'd live to catch y'all lacking

I'm going numb
I guess my head can't take it
Make me shake when I'm off medication
Bless the weight, fuck a fate
I'm no patient
Thought I escaped him, it's just baked in
Fun, I know my worldview's breaking
I see the people and behaviors I would take in
To you I've always just been something that you'll break in
When done discard you don't care you'll replace it

I know more of your predation than I knew you
Ooh
All you'll be to me is trauma that I pushed through
Simply paint me as a fiend in their eyes
Sit and watch from afar as you scar me twice
Told that I'll be running
Everybody wants to find an angle where I'm bluffing
I won't risk it all for nothing
I'm fatally invested in my trials meaning something

What's the point of the fight
I'm broken and right
You're just enabled by your fans but police won't care bout your side
Is this what you wanted