stepping stone

Somebody told me, Somebody said
It's all in your head
I'm trying my best though
And all the memories, I try to forget those
I've been so cold
I've been thinking way too much cause I
Cause I
I don't wanna let go, don't wanna let go
Don't wanna, don't wanna let go
I shouldn't have let go
Cause it was so so cold
And now I'm so so broke
I could never apologize
I could never be the one that you fall to
Never be a fan that you fantasize me
Devil on my head is a stepping stone
But it just hurts that my body is numb
Hurts that I'm not enough
Words that you said
I'm trying to work on myself again
Is this how we end
I could never apologize
I could never be the one that you fall to
Never be a fan that you fantasize me
Devil on my head is a stepping stone
But you dead fucked up
How you get mad when I gave up
You saw it coming baby, you know what you did
What you done
You saw them lies through the bluff
I hope you're happy cause I'm never loving anyone else

I could never apologize
Thought you'd never, you promised lies
It's been a colder winter
I've been sipping, I'm compromised
I'm feeling colder, weight on my shoulder
I'm breaking now we're getting older
Guess I don't know her, we breaking into pieces
Cant remake the puzzle
All these fucking reasons
We turned into this trouble
Changing with the seasons
I'm feeling like a puddle
Get to drinking up a puddle
I can't move a fucking muscle
I'm stuck, I'm going mad
She be asking why I'm sad
It's because of you
You fucking ruined what we had
It's because of you
And now I'm empty, broken hearted
Feeling farther from the person that I was
I disregarded all the warning signs
You fucking broke me to my core
I lost every bit of me
And you still asking for some more
What the fuck is that?
I left my heart up on the welcome mat
You fucked me over
And you thinking you are welcome back
Fuck you
Why the fuck I ever trust you
Push me to the side
And you still wonder what I'm up to
Nothing much
I'm drinking liquor and I'm popping subs
I'm downing everything so I can drown this broken love
Empty bottles
Tip it back to forget all my problems
I tip it back and I'm drinking it until it is hollow
I remember back when I thought this was perfect
I'm worse than I ever was before
This ain't worth it
I could never apologize
I could never say sorry for what you did
I can never go back to the way we lived
I can never go back to being alone
Cause you weren't there so I never could call you home
And all I wanted was us to just make it work
The more effort resulted in more hurt
I don't get it because it is getting worse
This type of loving becoming my biggest curse

I could never apologize
I could never be the one that you fall to
Never be a fan that you fantasize me
Devil on my head is a stepping stone
But it just hurts that my body is numb
Hurts that I'm not enough
Words that you said
Tryna work on myself again
I could never apologize