When I'm Still

I left another me
It's in a silent realm
Repress it with a smile
Striving for perfection
Just another lie
Push you further down

But when I hear you speak
Like wind between the leaves
I find that

All I've ever run away from lives inside of me
Remember when it spoke so loud and clear
That howling voice is just a whisper after all these years
And I can only hear it when I'm still

I left another me
It's in a distant world
Trying to be heard
Mind will make it scary
Mind will keep avoiding
The stuff that feels unknown and dark

But when I hear you speak
Like wind between the leaves
I find that

All I've ever been afraid of lives inside of me
Remember when it spoke so loud and clear
That howling voice is just a whisper after all these years
And I can only hear it when I'm still

Keep pretending there's no dust under the rug
Keep perfecting it
Pushing away our inner ghosts
Good looking rose that never grows
Where the roots go?
Been forgotten for so long
That
All I've ever run away from lives inside of me
Remember when it spoke so loud and clear
That howling voice is just a whisper after all these years
And I can only hear it when I'm still

I left another me
It's far back in my mind
A tricky one to find
Still