On the Playground

I was never good at monkey bars
I was never good at runnin'
I was never good at being loved back
But I still thought you were so stunnin'

I thought you were like an angel from up high
And I was just a canary in a coal mine
All I ever wanted was somebody to love me
I wished on every single shooting star up above me

But when we played house I played the stairs
And you walked all over my spine
And I said hey, at least I'm included
You didn't have to be so kind
But now I have your footprints on my back
They hurt when I'm having an asthma attack
But I'm sure that you had your reasons for pushing me down
On the playground

I was never good at seeking you out
But I was even worse at hiding
I was never good at getting angry
So I never got the hang of fighting

I thought you could give me some purpose
But you hurt me, don't think it was on purpose
All I ever wanted was somebody to like me
To think that I was funny and to not wanna fight me

But when we played house I played the stairs
And you walked all over my spine
And I said hey, at least I'm included
You didn't have to be so kind
But now I have your footprints on my back
They hurt when I'm having a panic attack
But I'm sure that you had your reasons for pushing me down
On the playground

And I am sorry for being so annoying
So saccharine and cloying
And I am sorry for crying and for telling
For singing and rebelling

Now when we play house I ask to be the stairs
And I offer you my spine
And you say hey, that's so considerate
How are you so kind?
Cause now I crave your footprints on my back
Walk on me or I'll have a heart attack
And I forgive all your reasons for pushing me down
On the playground