Hold My Head Up

I hold my head up
I hold my head up
But I just keep on falling down
What am I to do right now

I hold my head up
I hold my head up
But I just keep on falling down
What am I to do right now

Keep falling, I look in the mirror
Nigga winter falling
Then springed back to summer
Damn I miss that summer
When under, my white T's I'd wear tank tops
When I wasn't so focused about niggas getting rocked, or rocks, being thrown at my back
By these stoned corpses in the back
When I used to call my dad
And he'd pick us up in the cadillac
And I wouldn't know how to act
Cause I was so vivid with color then
Like I got my daddy back
But that shii was so short lived
Parents kept telling us to be a kid
For as long as we can at this age
But we can't cause we was never babied
Like niggas barely had a bib
Been eating grown since I was like shii, seven or six

Fast foward, now I'm working evening shifts
Wondering do I really wanna do this music shii
Cause I love it so much, but
I just be doubting myself
I'm too much of a perfectionist
Like I love all this rapping, I be doing
But lately I feel as if an evil entity been misconstruing
With my whole family, and the shii be true and
I can't even save them, cause it's just the natural society
In my mind I'm rioting
Against my existence
Is it essential that I'm alive, what be my purpose
Even though lately I just been heartbroken and deprived
And stripped of my nature of being a human being
But you know one thing, throughout it all, I (Throughout it all I)

I hold my head up
I hold my head up
But I just keep on falling down
What am I to do right now

I hold my head up
I hold my head up
But I just keep on falling down
What am I to do right now

Light candle, burn candle
Pop kettle, blow candle
Mind your mental, my mind is mental
Be kind and gentle, get presidential
This shits inadequate
I inhabit a lost soul
Voided far in the unknown
I walk alone
I'm drowning in pure gold
That I can not hold
I'm chained to my past life, I get visions every half night
Of a demon with an half pipe, I still gotta win that fight
I hope to see the day that I finally get my shit right
Damn I've been living outside my body
I wonder how it feel to take drugs with IV
Bro popped a pill so I took one beside him
Then life sent a message I still haven't replied with, an answer
This shits inadequate
Lonely high school graduate, and I'm supposed to be the oldest
But at this very moment
I'm stuck at my lowest
This should been when I feel the coldest
But I've yet to been chosen, shit left me heart broken
Damn am I soft spoken
Am I the person no one noticed
They told me make noise, so I took my time and wrote it
My girl told me stop stressing
Cause the image that I'm pressing, is causing my depression
I fed it to myself directly, no one had to direct it
I always told my girl to chill, now she tell me chill
Focus on the bigger picture not the little deal
You're the man of steel, not the mice that squeal
Don't worry about it if it don't pay the bill
So I

I hold my head up
I hold my head up
But I just keep on falling down
What am I to do right now

I hold my head up
I hold my head up