Hating Halloween

I still see you in the corner of my eye
Walking down the streets of New York City
Never felt so dark or made me cry
Autumn stings a little more this time of year
Children scream in celebration, oh, you'd hate these decorations
Oh I knew you hated carving faces into pumpkins
It scared you the way they smiled back
October hurts when I'm not wasted
I'm thinking on bittersweet memories
Of how you always hated Halloween
Every witch and werewolf knocking at my door
Holds a smiling face, an empty bag
The same routine you'd whine about before
But I open hoping you'll be there, dressed in something childish
Oh my wish: to see you again
Oh I knew you hated carving faces into pumpkins
It scared you the way they smiled back
October hurts when I'm not wasted
I'm thinking on bittersweet memories
Of how you always hated Halloween
Won't you come to me
Let's make costumes fun again
Drink and talk until it's 5 AM
Oh, I remember when
Hallow's Eve was
About grieving
For the ghosts we leave behind
Once the candy bowl is empty I retire
In my living room, a beer in hand
A toast with every can till I'm too tired
I'm on the couch each night with you on my mind
An open can for you each year
Sleeping in my drunken tears
Oh I knew you hated carving faces into pumpkins
It scared you the way they smiled back
October hurts when I'm not wasted
I'm thinking on bittersweet memories
Of how you always hated Halloween