Boxing Day

Maybe I could make more sense of the world
If I didn't do so many drugs when I was 17
Maybe then I'd remember what I learned in AP history
You wouldn't have to explain it to me
That's how I started second guessing everything
And my brain started hurting

The only time I feel right
Is when I'm watching true crime
Then I wonder why I can't turn off my lights
I only wanna die after waking up from a nap
I told my therapist that

Maybe you don't care
Maybe you don't think for a second about me
I put my boxes in your empty room
They were filled with all the things I didn't need
You're always stuck with the memory

Won't forget the man who called me that
I was only thirteen
I'm glad he's bound to be dead now
Because I'm finally living
I found the meaning that I had lost
Every time you tricked me
Measured days by how long I stayed
Now I'm finally free
Keep me in your thoughts
Because I feel you in my toes
God only knows

The only time I feel right
Is when I'm out of my mind
Then I wonder why I never sleep at night
I always wanna cry I felt so alone
It gave me more space to grow

Maybe you don't care
Maybe you don't think for a second about me
I put my boxes in your empty room
They were filled with all the things I didn't need
You're always stuck with the memory
I'm always stuck with the memory

All these things that I didn't need
All these things that I didn't need
All these things that I didn't need
All these things that I didn't need
All these things that I didn't need
All these things that I didn't need
All these things I didn't need

I wish it all would happen to you
I take it back that's rude