Always Saying Nothing

Did you forgive me when I came off boring?
I only wanted not to share so much all at once
Think I was trying to make it something else again
Like a drunk in an alleyway I kept singing to myself about it

All the rest of my heads are on the hunt
For the mind I lost, I tried to throw it out
Are you afraid of heights? I fear I'll let you down too slowly
Do I convey the sentiment of one hundred poets only

I've the great white teeth of an elephant
In the mouth of a bluebird in cement
Spent the last three nights chewing on glass
Never gave my brain a rest
When I cough up the grains of a humble lung
And attempt to engage in another tongue
By saying shit, I'm saying nothing at all
Just saying saying saying saying saying

These sudden surges of extroversion
Do they alarm or do they help things balance out?
Make love in the park while everyone watches
Let's go bowling wearing only roses on our crotches

We will live in modest homes
And surround ourselves with coloured walls
I'll depart from my habit of foolish jokes
If you pray for me (I'm only kidding, don't)
Am I droning on? Am I thinking too much?
God damn, take a breath and shut myself up
I know I need to get it all right
But I just don't have the energy now

So we'll decide we're just staying in tonight
For a treat and a box of cheap red wine
We can play with ourselves and play rah rah
Maybe you could touch me there, oo la la la la
Little bits of me will live in the air
And dissolve into words that scream to be heard
If I'm saying them, I'm saying my mind
So I'll say it, say it say it say it say it